Well here it is the moment that I have been desperately waiting for the start of the summer holidays :) Its good to know that I've got at least 8 weeks free though I am planning on going into uni over the summer as being a January intake were always going to have work to do over the summer (bummer).
I've been so worried about starting this essay on my dementia client from placement. Placement didn't go well for me. Its certainly not a bad placement its just that I had so much anxiety about it and really didn't cope to well with the anxiety. I came off placement really wanting to leave my course though I know now that I'm not going to leave it. I've been loving the lectures and learning all about mental health care, and I worked so hard to get onto the course in the first place. The lecturers have been great providing supervision I'm just sad I didn't ask for it sooner. I hate the fact that such a negative work event that happened prior to the course really has coloured my first six months as a student nurse. Anyhow I was worried that writing about dementia care would drag me back inside my own head, which is something I really need to avoid at the moment, and wanted to write about someone with a learning disability instead. My tutor was very helpful and said she thinks I should stick to the dementia essay as it would be the easier one for me to write, as I have the research base behind it. But as I only showed her an essay plan I can see her again over with my essay if its worrying me at all. Its not the actual writing of an essay that's concerning me its the dip that my mood can take again. It also concerns me that an event at work appears to have re triggered my ptsd symptoms of being highly anxious. I'm still not convinced that I can do this.
I've been so worried about starting this essay on my dementia client from placement. Placement didn't go well for me. Its certainly not a bad placement its just that I had so much anxiety about it and really didn't cope to well with the anxiety. I came off placement really wanting to leave my course though I know now that I'm not going to leave it. I've been loving the lectures and learning all about mental health care, and I worked so hard to get onto the course in the first place. The lecturers have been great providing supervision I'm just sad I didn't ask for it sooner. I hate the fact that such a negative work event that happened prior to the course really has coloured my first six months as a student nurse. Anyhow I was worried that writing about dementia care would drag me back inside my own head, which is something I really need to avoid at the moment, and wanted to write about someone with a learning disability instead. My tutor was very helpful and said she thinks I should stick to the dementia essay as it would be the easier one for me to write, as I have the research base behind it. But as I only showed her an essay plan I can see her again over with my essay if its worrying me at all. Its not the actual writing of an essay that's concerning me its the dip that my mood can take again. It also concerns me that an event at work appears to have re triggered my ptsd symptoms of being highly anxious. I'm still not convinced that I can do this.
